I hate grad school…. well, not really. But I hate how running makes me hate grad school.
This training plan has made me even more tired than usual. And after a long day of work I’m so damn tired and just want to RELAX and maybe even go to sleep early. But what I actually have to do is start on a ton of school work and then do 10 miles of intervals. And I can’t put them off til tomorrow because of deadlines for school and because no time to run tomorrow at all.
It’s so hard to care about school or intervals after a long work day and taking care of two young kids. It would be easier if my kids were older. Everything would be easier without grad school. But I thought I could do it. I thought I could juggle it all without crashing from exhaustion. I mean, I did it last year right? Thing is… last year I only ran twice a week, no intervals and no fast runs. It was a survival type training – I was only training to survive the marathon. And even that was exhausting with school and work and kids. But this year, upping the training ante has wiped me out. It’s so much more exhausting to run 5x a week, with intervals and speed work, than to run 2x a week. Yeah, I know, shocking newsflash there right?
I called my run buddy to complain about this schedule of pain and how I never should have signed up for another marathon this year and definitely not signed up for a more ambitious training schedule. She helpfully and compassionately dished out an “I TOLD YOU SO!!” while waving her entry to the Marine Corps 10k in my face. Oh yeah? Well friends don’t let friends sign up for marathons in grad school! Major FAIL in the friendship department on her part if you ask me!
Just. So. Tired. But must get back to work. Chance of doing intervals tonight at 15%… and dropping… This all seemed possible til school started! I’m going to fail miserably at Marine Corps this year!
Next up: Will a post-work cappuccino help me survive the rest of my training?