Nothing like a random 18 miler in the rain on a Tuesday night when you have papers due for school. And that, my friends, is how I do my training. Total randomness.
I was out of town this past weekend visiting family. There was just never a good time to slip away for 3 or 4 hours to do a 20 mile run. Plus I wasn’t familiar with the area. It’s difficult to just create a 20 mile route on the fly like that. I decided to skip the run and just spend time with my kids and family, and I don’t regret it. But as the weekend went on, I started getting panicky about missing my 20 miler. Then Monday came and I was convinced I’d crash and burn at the marathon because I didn’t do this last 20. Cut to me rushing out the door in the rain after work on Tuesday, fueled on nerves and anxiety and a lot of craziness, and totally ditching my school work in the process.
It went ok. I was pretty zoned out on anxiety about getting a long run in and proving to myself I still had it. I would have done 2 more miles but it went pitch black on me. And I have this policy about not running through alligator country in the dark. I think I knew I wasn’t going to make it so I rushed my pace, even though I told myself to slow it down because it was my long run. Nope. I set training PRs for 10k and for the half marathon. Eek. I wasn’t feeling victorious though. I felt like I screwed up. And now, two days later, I’m still sore and I KNOW I screwed up. Yep, doing things the right way is for your second marathon, apparently.
School is killing me. And our first exams are starting. I don’t know what my running will be like from now until the race. I’m gong to try and not run at all the last week before I travel. It won’t do me any good and I am kind of superstitious about runs the week before a big race. I guess I’ll try and get my 12 and 8 in but, again, that’s if school permits.
Back to the 18 miler… I didn’t get recovery sleep because of school. Maybe a few hours. Then the next night only a couple of hours due to an all-nighter to make assignment deadlines. With school back in session, running takes a back seat. It’s frustrating. But I’m too tired to care at this point.